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Im at school right now, i just finished some lab thingy...booring. ya well i didnt want to come to school today but here i am so oh well, i got like no sleep last nite, i wasnt planning on going to school today so i didnt go to bed until 12:30 and then my aunt mom kris and courtney all came in at 2:30 and woke me up then i didnt get back to sleep until like 3 then had to get up for school at 5:30...i was all wide awake a little whils ago but now im not, i think im deff. over tired. its only 3rd period it feels like it should be like 8th, but hey at least its friday, and i have a busy weekend ahead of me...tonite dee and neehad are coming but not till like midnight, so its gonna be another long nite but thats okay cuz me and chrissy have alot to talk about. then 2morrow we have my cousins bat mizvah which is why all my family is here, and that starts at like 10 and then we have the party after and then after the party were going to party more at my aunts house then my mom said if there partying is going well then there gonna go out more but i have to stay home and watch the kids, lucky me right, mom said when im old enough to drink she'll take me on the "special" parties. lol. still have 10 minutes left in this period... well then on sunday were having a party at my house, and zachs supposed to come so he can meet my aunt...fun stuff ya so anywho im really tired and cranky but i get to see zach next period so thats good well i guess ill end it here or ill just start talking about stupid shit...until next time

well i dont know what to write about but Britt wants me to write more and more often so i guess i will...well homecoming is this weekend and im going with Zach :) Me and Zach haven been going out for almost 3 weeks..i know such a long time hehe but ya i really like him and hope we go out for a long time. Moms boyfriend moved in, its been intresting having him here, you know you gotta get used to having an extra person in your house, you have to make adjustments, every1 does, and it just gets annoying but hey oh well ill get over it. i have sooo much to talk about but of course when i go to write it down i can never remember any of it. i think im sick with some sorta sinus thing. ive been having bad days lately, idk y i just have been with friend and everything its like my new motto has turned to girls suck which kinda sucks cuz im a girl but idk maybe its just me. i feel like i just wanna pack up my things and leave, im so tired of the same shit being talked about and the same fights and the same everything and i mean i love all my friends but living the same life for soo long gets kinda boring its like nothing new happens and i know if my mom said to me right now lets pack up right now were moving i know id be vry sad but i think in the long run id be happy, id prolly miss zach alot and my friends so maybe i wouldnt leave forever but maybe for like a few months thats all i need, its like i need a vacation from my life..lol...well i get to go on a cruise in april which im very excited about i cant wait and thatll kinda be like a vacation i guess but its only for a week. i mean i guess i dont hate my life too much cuz i always have u no matter what just some parts suck really bad ya well i guess i cant think of anything else to say...britt if you read this i love you i wrote this just for you but of course i would miss you way more then zach :) love ya

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Well the 1st day sucked so bad i was thinking o no im gonna have a horrible year all i wanted to do all day was go home and cry i was soooo depressed and there wasnt even any cute guys which sucked majorly. the next got a little better during lunch cuz thats when i met zach :) me and corina felt bad for him cuz he was sitting by himself so i went and asked him to sit with us and he did then i talked him online and stuff and he came and hung out at my house on friday night and then asked me out on sat. morning :) so now things are going pretty well..i even kinda like my classes now but well see what happens

I had an awesome vacation, we did so much stuff. i got there wed. nite really late with my mom the next day we went out to lunch with my cousins there mom my mom and my aunt. it was cool cuz my cousins mom gave me $100 so that was kewl. that nite my mom went out with my aunt and uncle. then on fri. we went to six flags that was so much fun we went on tons of rides and me and my 2 cousins did the dive devil thing which is the thing where it brings you up then you pull this cord and you go flying, its sooo aweesome!! sat we had a party for my aunts bday that was cool i got to meet her friends, her one friend had a boy named Forrest who was 15 he was pretty cute, i kinda had a tiny crush on him but i didnt tell anyone so he didnt know but when me and him were talking he asked if i had a boyfriend and i said no and he was like wow i cant beileve it cuz your so hott i would have deff. thought you had a boyfriend, so that made me feel good about myself. Then on sun. we went to Venice Beach, that was soo awesome we walked around on the boardwalk thing and i bought a skirt that says venice beach its cute, there was some crazy people walking around there. but also tons and tons of extremely hot guys who skate also which is always a plus :)we also went swimming that was kewl too i havent gone swimming in the ocean since the last time i was in cali. mon we kinda just hung around the house tues we went to the zoo that was kewl wed. me and my aunt went to hollywood we just walked around, that nite we to see the taping of less than perfect, that was soo kewl thur was another relax day then fri just me and my aunt went to six flags we rode on every single roller coaster and every single water ride it was great. sat was just a relax day sun nite forrest his parents and his friend tim came over for dinner that was cool i hugged forrest when he left but that was all that happened with me and him mon. i laid out in the sun with lemon juice in my hair to lighten my hair then tues. i came home and have been bored ever since tonite im going to dads house then fri nite im going to corinas house for her tatoo party to get my tatoo and then sat.nite im going back to her house again so my mom can get her tatoo then and sat during the day im going to grammy and poppys for a family party kinda thing then sun a bunch of ppl are going to lake compounds then mon. were having another party and tues. hopefully i can go with christine to school to check out where my classes are then wed. school starts..lovely...im kinda excited but at the same time im not at all

i had a really bad day today i dont know why. it all started cuz me chris and jess got in this big conversation about the end of the world and god and stuff and jess scared the shit out of me and chris so then we couldnt fall asleep so we didnt go to sleep till like 3 and then got up really early i went to the mall with my mom and her friend tonite i was so tired i was like in the worst mood and it just kept getting worse. kyle called and was being a dick so my mom yelled at him then i heard this song and it made me sad and idk it just sucked. im going to california 2morrow so hopefully im not a bitch 2morrow also. i think im gonna go to bed like now so hopefully ill get like 12 hours sleep and be well rested cuz i really hate being a bitch its not cool.

i just got home from nan and pops i was there for a little over a week it was okay i went to mickey and heathers for like half the time i was there, that was fun, we went to the races and i won with a horse, it came in 1st its name was purge and the jockey was john velasquez....funny right. we also went to see a polo match, that was intresting. i helped my nanny alot around the house, so she gave me money when i left which was cool. my dad let me drive all the way home today from my grandparents, i did pretty good. i got my schedule today im so mad i have like no classes with any1 i have lunch with corina the 1st half of the year. i have metal shop 1st period i dont know if i really wanna do it anymore. i mean if i wanna wear a skirt its gonna suck and also i think ill prolly be in it with all guys which suxx also. but oh well suxx to be me, christines coming to sleep over tonite so thatll be cool.

Well yesterday i hung out with shane again...we went to the movies we saw the village it was okay it kinda sucked christine was supposed to go but then never called it was way weird idk whats going on with her...moms yellin at me to get offline so im gonna make it quick i got mad at shane for smoking at the movies he was supposed to quit for me but he is now cuz i yelled at him to bye

Well yesterday i cleaned my room cuz i was bored then mom got home and we went shopping got 3 skirts and a few tops we had lots of fun and we got the ashlee simpson cd and i got underwear from pacific sunwear. After shopping we went to the movies and we saw Catwomen, it was okay i dont really remember it. Then i got home and went online and talked to shane on the phone until his phone died. Today me and mom went and saw Glenda, we bought some cloths and set up dates for both of us to get a portfolio im soo excited i mean i know i already have one but its from a few years ago and she said now that im older we have a wider variety of cloths i can wear so im very excited to see what she picks out. Then me and mom went to lunch then came back home so i could practice my starting the car and stopping it, i got the stopping part down no problem but now i gotta work on the starting cuz i suck at it, Grammys gonna take me driving 2morrow so hopefully she help me out. Then after a horrible time of me driving we went to pick up Shane he came with us to meet the family at my uncles house, they alll likes him. My grandparents were giving everyone there art so thats why we went. My cousins were beating up on shane and saying he was my boyfriend and stuff. Me and shane played video games, that was fun. well nothing else really happend im hanging out with shane again tomorrow, were not even going out but it sure feels like it. Bye

well on tues. me and jess did end up going to the mall but just me her and kyle so we hung out but they didnt really click so nothing happened there but they got along great and it was all good, we had soo much fun...kyle fell over a bench it was hillarious...i couldnt stop laughing it was great. Then when we brought kyle home we were talking about hanging out at his house the next day cuz i wanted to see shane, so we drove kyle home and saw shane walking down the street so jess's mom started beeping at him and stuff and yelling it was funny, but i didnt really get to see him :( So then the next morning me and jess went to kyles but kyle wasnt home so we hung out with shane:) we went to his house and hung out and jess was telling him to ask me out so he did and he was like staring into my eyes but i couldnt stop laughing...and i thought he was joking, so then we had to go to jess's cuz christine was there and we were supposed to be there and it was horrible and we thought we were gonna get in sooo much trouble and then we didnt so when we were hanging out with shane jess had told him where she lived and he mentioned coming to her house to see us and we thought he was joking but then while we were eating dinner he showed up...and everyone startred laughing cuz we had just been talking about him so then after dinner jess and christine were like well lets go outside so they went out with shane and i stayed inside and talked with her mom for a few minutes and then jess and christine came back in and were like shane wants t otalk to you and then dragged me outside so me and shane sat outside and he asked me out again and was like oh ya and im not joking so i was like well me and my bf just broke up last week so idk if i want a bf yet and he was like okay..so then we just hung out for a little and kissed and stuff then he had to go. Today we went to Beacon where we were supposed to meet this really hott kid dean but he never showed so we had to walk around freaking beacon for over 3 hours and it was hott and sunny and it sucked ass but we made it throu then i went to my dads house and hung out with my little brother and little sister and went to my dads baseball game then it was time to come home and my dad let me drive :) and then after i got home Shane called me:) and now i think im gonna go to bed cuz im tired from the last few days

Im so bored theres nothing to do. Jess came over today and i got to meet doug today and Jon was here to...but me and doug didnt really click if you know what i mean...hes a really nice guy and pretty good looking i guess hes just not my type. Im supposed to go to Lake Compounds tomorrow with my aunt and my cousins but idk cuz she never called me back so me and jess decided if my aunt doesnt call me back that were gonna go to the mall and maybe christine will come and then maybe shane and kyle too...i think shanes soo cute. i hope they do come. Theres really nothing to do here, im so bored. I wish i could be little again i seemed to always have something to do when i was little and now im older and it suxx. Well i cant think of anything else to write about so i hope i have an exciting day tomorrow to write about.

I just got home from Christines house we had a good time. shes trying to hook me up with this kid Doug hes pretty cool but he gets weird sometimes, and then theres this kid Dean that Jess likes hes soo hott were gonna hang out with him on thurs. but idk if i even want a boyfriend i kinda just wanna have fun its more fun, cuz then you cant get your heart broken. Well john sent me a text message today which i wasnt expecting but he did, he wanted to know if i was mad at him still cuz he wants to be friends idk why thou its so hard to stay friends with a guy who you were in love with while you were together and still are. he said that the whole karin thing wasnt true but who knows idk who to trust. Ya so anywho i started talking to kyle again, im trying to hook him up with Jess so who knows what will happen i think were hanging out with him this week too...wow i got alot to do this week but thats okay i like to keep busy and not home...lol...i still got like 2 weeks before i go to see my grandparents and then after i get back from there i have 3 days to pack for california and then i get home on august 31 so ill have a like a week before school starts so hopefully i have enough time to do stuff before school. Im so bored theres nothing to do i was gonna hang out with Doug but who knoes i lost his number already so idk. I feel like all i do is pack and unpack its fun thou i usually have what i need in a bag to leave...my grandparents are here too till october so thats cool but theree in long island right now but there coming up here soon in a few days i think so thatll be cool i can go shopping with my grandma well ya i ran outta things to talk about so bye

Ya im at Christines house and we have nothing to do. Jess is on the phone with this really hott guy Dean. We went for a walk before that was cool. I went to my 5 hour course today. It was one of the weirdest expierences ive ever had. The instructor was way weird like when we first got there it was all normal but then we did this game thing where we got into groups and he asked us questions and he was like oh ill have a favorite who ill give points to on the test in the end, my group started out as his favorite one and he was like asking us stupid questions like what our favorite band was and stuff like that it was so weird then he wanted my team to come up with the words to the lion kings the circle of life and then me to sing it, but he didnt like my singing voice so he took my team outta the game. But i got us back in the game when i did the macarena, then we went to lunch and when we came back it was normal and we took the test and i passed!!! If you passed he made you stand up in front of the class and scream "i am the greatest" it was soo funny well i guess i have to go cuz my friends suck monkey balls

Wow last night i had the best night!! I went and slept over Jess's house with Christine. We went to the mall yesterday and had the best time, ive never laughed so much at the mall. When we were sitting down eating and i was eating a sandwich and Jess was like eww you have a hair hanging out of your mouth, it was soooo gross, i thought i was gonna puke. So we were still laughing about that when some random guy came over and sat at out table. He was like Hi whats your name and can i get your # so Jess was like sure(she gave him a wrong #)and hes like what about your friends and Christine said i dont have a cell and my house phone broke and then he asked me and Jess goes shes poor she lives in a box, then Jess goes okay im gonna go to hte bathroom and he was like by yourself and she was like no were all gonna go so then we left and he left us alone. We laughed all the way to the bathroom and when we got there we saw Chris and we said hi to him and then we left to go shopping and we saw Vinnie who scared the crap outta me. Then we went and ate again and we were throwing food around and Christine threw blogna at me and it stuck to my head..it was soo funny. Then Jess stuck ham to her forehead to walk outside to meet her mom then when we were outside waiting we had whistle pops which are really annoying if your not the one with it so i think we annoyed ppl there. Then we went to jess's and just hung out. This morning Christine left way early. So since it was raining me and jess decided to go puddle jumping, which was soo funny cuz i was wearing boxers and ever time i jumped they fell off. We got soaked and all dirty. Then we decided we'd go jump in her grandmas pool to wash off but then morgan came so she had to puddle jump too but she just rolled around in the mud, she got soo dirty, it was great then we went to the pool and morgan jumped in first and there was a huge place where it was brown from mud, then we all jumped in and the pool like turned brown. Then we went back and all stripped on the porch...lol...and got dressed and then ordered food and then i came home. It was soo awesome. I had the best time!

Im soo bored theres nothing to do...i went driving today with my dad i thought he was gonna kill me everytime he would get mad about my driving he would whistle it was quite funny acually. Theres nothing to do, i decided i wanted to bleach the floor today and i tried to but it didnt work so now my house smells like bleach which suxx. Im going to sleep over Jess's house tonite. My mom booked our cruise sooo awesome i cant wait!!! Were going in april, that seems sooo far away, but im sure itll come quick after school starts. I've been listening to tbs alot lately. I dont know what to write about, i hope that i can keep myself busy the rest of the summer cuz if i dont then i think about john and it suxx cuz i have all these emotions about him inside and i dont know what to do with them. I was talking to my mom about him and i was like if i see him in school i might go up to him and punch him in the face and she goes nah slap him its more lady like...lol...
she knoes how to make me feel better sometimes. Its weird sometimes when im alone and im thinking about a bunch of stuff and all the bad stuff thats happpened to me i think wow its like im on a bad tv show thats called "How to make Amanda kill herself" cuz thats how i feeel sometimes its sooo annoying its like all the bad shit that happens shouldnt be happening to me i mean i know worse things happen to other ppl but when it happens to you its different cuz its your life and you have to live with the bad shit...and it suxx...but theres nothing i can do but just deal...

Pattys here were just hanging out and i decided to make one of these thingys cuz it seems like all of my friends have one. I had a sleep over last nite...hehe...Patty,Gina,Jess, and Liz slept over, we had alot of fun...we took like a bazzilion walks. My took us to get McDonalds at 11:30 last nite it was fun. We stayed up until like 2:30 we had a great nite. Corina and Britt were gonna come too but they couldnt cuz Corina had to work and Britt didnt have a ride. Ya and john my boyfriend broke up with me like 2 days ago...we had been going out for just over 3 months...and then i was okay and everything with it but then i found out that while we were still going out he was hanging out with this girl Karin who he used to be in love with but acually i guess he still is cuz he told her that he still liked her or something like that while we were still gong out i was soooo pissed when i heard that so needless to stay i dont think me and him will be able to become friends again because that hurt me really bad that my boyfriend would do that and especailly the fact that he was my best friend before we went out...but i decided that everything happens for a reason. It still suxx but hey i guess ill just havwe to deal. my friends were all helping though by saying i deserve better and stuff like that and i guess i really do cuz after i heard that about that girl i was soo pissed i still am. Im supposed to be cleaning my house right now but im too lazy. I might go do my stupid 5 hour course thing this weekend so that i can get my license in december. I really have nothing else to say except that im now way bored beacuse patty just left and now i have too clean and also the fact that i know think John is a total ASSHOLE!!! Bye